Seeing "Maths" all over my timetable soothes me considerately. No, maybe quite a huge amount.
It makes me feel like I'm actually doing 'something'. Being at school soothes my thoughts too, because it gives me something of a 'meaning'. It lessens my daily suicidal thoughts considerately, because I now have something else to think about, and 'important' things to do.
I can't say I love school, mainly because I don't like using the word 'love' - it is too strong, too definite. I am a person of uncertainty and lack of confidence; I don't like my words sounding do definite. 'Hate' is okay because it is negative, and I am a negative person. So that is acceptable. I would only use it if I was 100% sure and passionately felt hatred towards the subject/topic/object to the point that I might even give up dying now just to do something to it though. :O (In normal people terms, I guess that it's "hate it so much I could die"?)
Seeing "Maths" all over my timetable soothes me.
Doing "Maths" every school day and sometimes twice a school day soothes me even more.
Maths C is ridiculously fun. I have to admit this.
However there is still a catch. ...Seriously, something never fails to worry me. ==
Apparently since Maths C is a senior (Yr 11 & Yr 12) subject, there isn't a course/textbook available for Year 10s. The teacher said that we're practically doing Year 11 work - the activity book we were given was copied out of a Year 11 textbook.
That sentence made me somewhat glad, yet painfully agonised at the same time. We're learning Matrices. I bet you a million dollars that I could do this even if I was in grade/elementary/primary school. No joke. And apparently it's for Year 11s. ...that's really depressing to hear.
What we're learning in Physics is even harder than that. And Physics, in my eyes, is probably Grade 9 level. Although I did have a bit of trouble with it, but that's simply because I'm stupid. :3
Three of my six subjects are Maths C, Physics and Maths Extension/Maths B. Physics contain a lot of maths, so it feels a lot like I'm doing maths. :3
So peaceful~
Doing Maths day in, day out~
I get this "fuwa~ fuwa~" sort of feeling after a Maths-filled lesson...
It makes me feel like I'm actually doing 'something'. Being at school soothes my thoughts too, because it gives me something of a 'meaning'. It lessens my daily suicidal thoughts considerately, because I now have something else to think about, and 'important' things to do.
I can't say I love school, mainly because I don't like using the word 'love' - it is too strong, too definite. I am a person of uncertainty and lack of confidence; I don't like my words sounding do definite. 'Hate' is okay because it is negative, and I am a negative person. So that is acceptable. I would only use it if I was 100% sure and passionately felt hatred towards the subject/topic/object to the point that I might even give up dying now just to do something to it though. :O (In normal people terms, I guess that it's "hate it so much I could die"?)
Seeing "Maths" all over my timetable soothes me.
Doing "Maths" every school day and sometimes twice a school day soothes me even more.
Maths C is ridiculously fun. I have to admit this.
However there is still a catch. ...Seriously, something never fails to worry me. ==
Apparently since Maths C is a senior (Yr 11 & Yr 12) subject, there isn't a course/textbook available for Year 10s. The teacher said that we're practically doing Year 11 work - the activity book we were given was copied out of a Year 11 textbook.
That sentence made me somewhat glad, yet painfully agonised at the same time. We're learning Matrices. I bet you a million dollars that I could do this even if I was in grade/elementary/primary school. No joke. And apparently it's for Year 11s. ...that's really depressing to hear.
What we're learning in Physics is even harder than that. And Physics, in my eyes, is probably Grade 9 level. Although I did have a bit of trouble with it, but that's simply because I'm stupid. :3
Three of my six subjects are Maths C, Physics and Maths Extension/Maths B. Physics contain a lot of maths, so it feels a lot like I'm doing maths. :3
So peaceful~
Doing Maths day in, day out~
I get this "fuwa~ fuwa~" sort of feeling after a Maths-filled lesson...
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