It's so strange, yesterday I was in the worst mood possible, since I made a [somewhat] drastic mistake at work. :3
The mistake was still in my mind when I woke up, and it is still in my mind right now, but I didn't feel as depressed about it as I did last night, going so far as to write a will/dying note. :P (which I didn't get to finish yet)
My attention was pulled away from it by a certain book that is just so awesome. It's a Taiwanese Light Novel by Yu Wo - two of her works has already been published as manhuas as well, and those two are my favourites!; 1/2 Prince and The Legend of Sun Knight!! :D
They are so hilarious; you can read [some of] the light novel translations
here or
here. (do beware the name differences)
Currently, both 1/2 Prince and The Legend of Sun Knight hasn't been fully translated online yet. But I have the whole The Legend of Sun Knight Light Novels in my possession, ahahaha! (If readers who are desperate wants to see what happen, I may be convinced enough to write up a detailed summary. :3)
Translating them won't work, because they come out sounding not as smooth > although I think I should practice my translating skills, lol...
Anyhow, today's title is a little more poetic than usual...
A coin being a metaphor of my mind - it's not that complicated. One side of the coin is the depressed side, and the other side is the happy side, lol. :P
Anyhow, I wanted to make a blog post.
But all of my drafts contains some sort of depression, however at the moment I don't feel like purposefully making myself depressed. Because I should indulge in a good mood when it's here - I'll turn into a bad mood at work anyway, because some of the waitresses' face just somehow annoys me. :P
I was in such a bad mood yesterday, too...
I guess it sometimes ring true, this "you should speak to someone" advice.
But the last time I talked to someone about my depression, it only made me more pissed - I think it's just because the other person only said stuff like, "why are you so depressed?", "what made you so?", "you shouldn't worry/think so much/be so hard on yourself, etc.", "you have to talk to someone!" and other annoying sentences.
They don't really understand - or rather, to me, it feels like they're not trying to understand at all, and I feel like they're only thinking about the top - the front of the problem, but this is something that needs to be fixed from the very core of it - if I continue thinking so negatively, then the outcome will continue to be the same.
Hah, I shouldn't be saying all this - it's making myself look stupid.
Anyhow, the reason I brought the "you should speak to someone" advice - I talked to someone, but it wasn't exactly about depression, and it just put me in a good mood. Since my friends make me so irritated so easily, I barely have nice, happy conversations with them anymore.
Plus, this person I talked to is, umm... on the same wavelength as I? His own words. :3
Pretty much, unlike my friends who are pure optimists (hah, so of course I'd be pissed at them ><), he... umm... understands?
No, I hate using this word!! It sounds so cheesy!!!!
Yes, so let's just drop that subject! (and I was the on who brought it upon myself... ==")
But now it's time I get ready for work. T^T
Later!
From,
Mage-chan~
