Pay; First Week, Winter Holidays 2012

I'm sort of glad that I got $400 AUSD, but still... it still feels like such a tiny amount!!
But I guess I can't expect anything on this level unless it's a Public Holiday, huh...

Haah, if I'd worked for 4 hours everyday this past week, I could've gotten... $434, not including tax. If it was 5 hours everyday this past week, I could've gotten... $539, not including tax! ...somehow, that still feels small. Maybe I'll only be satisfied with a ridiculous and impossible amount like $1000. >.>
But well, I know that I won't be able to work 5 hours everyday. It's not that I don't have the strength or whatever, but sometimes there's simply nothing to do... and my mood usually make me want to just quit working altogether, mostly when I have to interact with annoying people/co-workers.


At least lately I've been able to avoid smiling too much! Ahh, thinking about that makes me happy! XDD

Lack of Endurance and Lack of Effort

Which do you agree with more, "everyone is born equally", or vice versa?

I've read a considerable amount of manga, and in some, the philosophy they use are different. One says that everyone is born equally, but another says that everyone is born unequally - some are born into a poor family, etc, etc, etc.

Personally, I don't really think anyone is "exceptional". Life applies the same, annoying, unbreakable rules to everyone. I just hate those rules, I just can't stand them, I'm too tired to follow them, and I don't want to follow them.

Oh well, life isn't really what I was planning to blog about. =="
You're probably so tired of it now, you're planning to stop following my blog, right?? ><

The other day, another innocent conversation triggered me into a certain phrase [but this is positive... I think], that will most probably, very sadly, short-lived. I just know. It's happened before. =="
My mum and I came home one day after the same routine of work. We settled down then she started a conversation, "Today, Tony complained that he was tired."
Me: "Uhn." I already knew, since I heard him complaining, too. Tony's one of the chefs, btw. He's younger than my mum, though. [By farrrrr]
Her: "But look, I work from morning to night everyday, and I don't complain. Your aunty's even off worse. She wakes up early in the morning... Him complaining shows a lack of endurance."
By this point I was thrown into another self-ponder mode. Another one of my many "Hard Working" phrases started again, but I just know that it's going to last no more than a month, at most. It'd happened more than once, in the past. =="
Me: "I also have a lack of endurance, then." I mean, seriously now. I only work 5 hours a day at most, and I'm already complaining!? Shame on me, shame on me!! Weak!! I have to try harder!! There's no excuse, no excuse!! Pathetiiccc!!
Her: "...but you're still a child, so it's ok," she tried to reason.
Me: "Noooo, it ain't okay," I immediately replied. There are kids out there who're starving to death, working from morning til night to feed themselves and their family... and they aren't complaining!! It ain't okay!

Every time this fact hits me, I feel really guilty because usually I'd be acting quite irresponsible and all...

I've been a terribly bad child lately, not studying properly, leaving my assignments until the last moment, playing too much games, procrastinating too much, going to bed one hour later than usual and trying to get out of work as quickly as I can.

What I should be doing better is to prioritise. I know what is important and what is not, but what I do and what I should do are two different things. =*=

It pains me to the core to know that I didn't get 100% on my last Math exam. It makes me want to cry and slap myself into shaping up. [...almost said torture there, but it sounded a little too heavy...]
It pains me to know that I only get around $200 AUSD per week at the moment, and that could barely make a difference to the family's income. [I only contribute $100, though. The rest I keep...]
Which all comes down to that I simply have to work harder. I have to stretch out my working hours as long as possible, more so since I actually get the chance.
I thought that maybe 5 days a week just wasn't enough, but if I increase it my schoolwork will likely be neglected... =.="

Ah, what a bother it is to live...

Irritation is a Frequent Visitor to My Head, But I Told Them to Go Elsewhere Instead :)

Anyhow, I’m still blogging, as you can see. ^^

Also, whee!! The post title rhymes!! 8D

I’m happy at myself today; I think I acted pretty normal… I think. At least I highly hope so.

There was also another reason that made me happy at myself (there were a few instances where I definitely was not happy at myself though).

First let me relay to you what happened.

My friend’s household conditions has a risk of falling apart (even disappearing completely as a whole) in the future, and the problem and solution is money, plus people’s evilness.

She once stated that she was going to save up money to help with the cursed problem.

So I said, a few eeks later, “You said that you wanted to save up money right?”

“Yeah…?”

“However, if you continue working like this, you’ll never get a pay rise! You’ll need to know what you’re doing wrong! The other waitresses needs to know, too…”

“…I don’t really mind…”

“…”

“…”

I turned to her sharply.

She flashed me a sheepish-looking smile.

I mentally facepalmed myself.

The first second I was pissed at her, but my logical mind caught up to me quite quickly, to my content. :)

Rather than getting angry at someone like her who never fails to irritate me (along with many others – everybody in the whole world never fail to irritate me every now and then) my feelings changed.

I felt more like shooting myself in the head for my stupidity.

This only farther supported my thoughts.

That feelings and emotions are only a pain.

Yep, I’m still repeating myself.

I’m so boring. ==

I was happy that instead of feeling irritated about that certain friend, I blamed myself instead.

Yay~! Yay yay~!

Everything is my fault anyways, so it’s more reasonable of me to be irritated at myself. After all, it’s my fault; since I started the conversation. I brought it onto myself.

My friend, after the Something You Feel When You Want Things to Just End Already post, wanted to say something in response to it seeing that more than half of the post happens to be about her. She replied – ui dunno what reaction or response from me she was aiming for, but she responded with all those irrelevant points.

I was like, WTF? Why are you pointing out all these things? They ain’t the problem – not the ones that needs fixin’ anyways. Sure, I mentioned them, but solving them won’t change too much.

But I’ve already fizzled my irritation from that conversation by redirecting the unreasonable emotion to myself, so now it’s reasonable.

After all it’s my fault for blogging about it, resulting in her talking to me about it.

Besides, it’s almost impossible for me to not be irritated at almost everything that anybody says. =.=”

But then again it’s my fault for being so narrow-minded (and to be suffering from Depression), causing me to get irritated so easily and so often. :/

This is a Life Changing Decision :3 Indeed, it Changes My Life.

Yesss siree!
It's been confirmed! It was confirmed on the 12th of April, at approximately 5.12pm...
I will be moving back to Thailand by November of this year!
And yes, that was two days ago.

You may not have noticed it, but I was in quite the happy mood in the last four posts.
That was probably because of this news.

It's not that I actually want to go to Thailand, but I didn't not want to go either. :/

However this also means that I will not have to do Work Experience, something that has been worrying me endlessly and making me feel despair despite its best intentions.
So that is good.
Now I'll just... have to worry about school over there. I'm bracing myself for some studying torture, yes.

I was glad that it was finally confirmed, since I'd now know where to focus my daily activities and future planning towards. That was the reason for my happiness.
I now can discard all thoughts about Work Experience and Set Plan Interviews and all that Year 10 Work Education crap, and focus on getting ready for Thailand.
I need to clear out all of my possessions, too... *sigh* There are a lot of things to do... :/
I've already worked out what I would do with my big collection of manga, so that's fine...
There are so many things that need trashin'!!

Now, you blog readers that know me in the hideous thing that is real life, you have permission to tell this news to a total number of zero persons.
Understood? :3 *evil gleam*
All is cool if you do.
If not, then all is not cool but it's not like I can do anything about it, LOL.

However with that news, I'm starting to feel insanely lucky...
I didn't want to do Work Experience, and I didn't get to. Never in my life have I yet to come across troublesome hurdles or anything of the kind. My life has been a breeze through, as I just do easy stuff like homework and assignments.
...I was born with things that some doesn't have and things that some people wish so badly for,  good health (mostly), both parents; nice parents, employed parents, stable-jobs-employed parents, an education, etc...
...Feeling that I am insanely lucky however leads me to thinking that one day insane misfortune will inevitably befall upon me as compensation for all the luck I'm getting.
My life can't be a breeze all through the way, can it now?
I wouldn't think so... Hell no... Probably not... ...Hopefully yes...
Because it'd be bad since I think I'd end up in a wreck otherwise if I run into something big... since I've always lead an easy life before, I wouldn't be immune to any trouble, you know...

~
It's going to be even harder since it's Thailand. I need to search up on how Thailand does things.
And there are so many more thieves and cons in Thailand... I think. It gives me that sort of vibe, anyways.
Yesss, because Thai people are smart and there are many evil people in the world, so, smart + evil = !!!!.

I have no idea what I should do after graduating now, as I see no future for me in competitive Thailand.
Who knows, I might not even manage to graduate from Senior High School.
I might have to repeat Grade 10 three times at least or something... :/

I'm actually not sure whether I'm glad for this new change or not.
I'm really really glad that I do not have to do Work Experience and Australia's weird curriculum, but now my future looks soooo dim.
*sigh*
The words "failure" is singing itself to death in ma' mind~

Hm... Maybe I should try being optimistic?
But then what if I become optimistic but ends up failing, despite my optimism?
Nooooooooooooooooo, I refuse to become optimistic otherwise, with that possibility in mind. :/

You See Where the Power of Obsession Can Lead...

Wheewwwwww wwewwww~!

I just heard quite the exciting news from my coworkers.

They were very excited as they told me that "Super Junior", a K-Pop band, is coming to Australia next month to perform a concert. :3 With no hesitation, they planned a 2-days 2-nights trip to Sydney, exactly like the time we went for the K-Pop Festival last year.
J-chan really loves Super Junior, so she was really excited. :3

I, in turn, was very excited about going to Sydney (I've been invited on their trip as well, because they like me, ahahaha >O< =.,<).
All that was running in my head; CAKE! FOOD! CHATIME! KINOKUNIYA!
...Seeing that I wasn't a K-Pop fan.

Now, I'd better save up some money for shopping and other expenses~
I've been granted permission from my parents, so now all is completely up to me whether I go or not. I have to miss a day off school (catching up is bothersome), and it's quite tiring to go on a holiday... it will be quite the rushed few days, no joke. ==

Aahh~
I'm in a good mood since I just got to read Bakuman's and Pandora Hearts' newest chapters which were both extremely good~

So then, so long,
From,
Mage-chan~

It's a Good Feeling that Lasted for Approx. 3 Seconds

Today, most of us were quite shocked when a policeman, in full uniform, walked into the restaurant. He asked for the manager or something, and the boss went on to talk to him.

It turned out that…

Remember the people I talked about in this post? Well, if you don’t, you will once you read it.

He came to ask whether these people had come to paid or not after he gave them a call to come pay.

Well, I found out that they had.

And the policeman was nice enough to come and ask us whether they have done so yet, although he shocked one of our waitresses quite a bit by walking straight up to her. xD

The boss had went to the station and told them to call those people so that they’d come and pay, ahahaha. :D

She said that they were mad that she’d called the police, ahahaha. x)

Well, yeah...

I didn't have the energy to be too happy, and I still don't.

Once in a While We get Those Type of Customers

...the type that refuses to pay.

A table we call "V.I.P." for no obvious reason although it's just a normal table, decided to not give us any money yesterday and disappeared into thin air. :)

We lost $146.30 AUSD, but they told us their phone number when they booked - but it could be fake... it probably is... :3

Second time in my life of working here have I came across people who tries to run for it.

It's quite exciting, really...

This time, what happened was that they complained one of the dishes they got and said that it "wasn't very nice". And that they wanted a dish of this for takeaway for compensation or whatever, I don't know since I wasn't involved.
After a while, I gave the takeaway to my coworker and told her that it was for table VIP. She took it, then came back saying that they've all gone, no one left.

Disappeared into thin air, that.

The World is Stopping me From Obtaining Happiness

This post was written in the December of last year. ==

There aren't many things that I really really want right now.

One of them being a G-Pen.

...I just want to try really drawing proper manga for a change... even though I'm still not that good at drawing!! ><

You see this?:

My friend one day came back from going to Brisbane:
"Hey, Mage-chan! I went to [this random store] and they had manga pens that you say you wanted!"
(They actually weren't what I wanted, but I want them anyway.)

And then she told me that was going to go to Brisbane, like, next week or something, so I was like:
"Then buy the pens for me."

On the day that she was supposed to buy them, she texted me, in this wording; "Umm... Mage-chan, here (there were several different stores she can get them from) there are colour shoujo-shonen set. Do you want them or the b n w?"
Me: "Both...?" I thought that having both would be a good idea although I dislike colouring... maybe I'll feel like it someday, plus, since there's a chance to buy it, I have to take the advantage of the opportunity.

But because of that text message, I knew to re-position my hopes to its lowest point.
And I was not disappointed. >.>
I got the colour shoujo set,

instead.
But without the Black pens, I can't actually draw any decent manga, so... I'll have to wait...

And then around a week later, she came up to see and said brightly, "Hey, guess what? G-chan got a G-Pen for Christmas!" No puns intended, G-chan is my friend's friend.
Me, "Ah... hah..." *thoughtful look* Dude... are you doing this on purpose!? Are you trying make me unhappy!?
Then she adds with a teasing-sort-of smile, "Are you jealous, are you?"
Me, *smiles thinly* Confirmed. She's doing this on purpose...
Then we abandoned the conversation. :/
(It was during work and she had to go serve some stuff)

Yeahh... my life doesn't really suck, but I don't exactly enjoy living, so I can't really say much...

Anyways, there's no way in hell I'm putting anything I draw up on the internet. It's too... well, it's not downright "terrible", but... naaah.
Maybe one day when I can be bothered to take a picture/scan it. (< that's actually my real reason... Laziness.)

But I guess my computer and fast internet alone is enough to make me happy at times. And by that, I meant MANGA.
One of the several things that are (probably?) stopping me from committing suicide. :P

Meh... I don't have any intentions of committing suicide anyway. Baaaaad karma.

Kikki.K's Price Tag is at the Top of a Skyscraper

...to be short and simple; it's "very high".

A laptop bag costed $90 < ugggh...

A fountain pen costed $30

An A5-sized diary costed $30

An A4 Compendium costed $70 < this one is most shocking...

I brought one of each.

That'd be $220 AUSD in total for 4 items.

Except that [and fortunately] everything was either 50% or 30% off.

The actual total was approx. $130 AUSD...

Taxes are so Despisable

This is one of the highest amount money I’ve received for one week’s worth of pay (I think).

This is all thanks to the Public Holiday, even though it’s still a pain to tell all the customers that there’s a surcharge…

The subtotal was $511 AUSD!! 8D

For a 14 year old girl, it’s pretty good (…it’s really good). Even my adult co-worker gets around $600-ish normally. Then again, this isn’t "normally". I usually get around $200 - $350-ish in normal weeks if I work everyday.

Then the other stuff kicked in.

After subtracting the tax and adding the tip, I ended up with $475 AUSD.

That’d be $36 less.

The tax was around $50…

And it was $10+ tip...

I don't really want to get involved with politics stuff, but they really make you want to hate them. :/

Yesterday's Notable Events

Let's see...

First, the Starer on Table 17.
There was this dude. He was sitting on Table 17. Table 17 is a 2-people table that is very visible to the bar and cashier.
Every time I looked up from the cashier or behind the bar/sink, I'd see that dude looking.
First time, I'd remembered that they'd ordered two dishes for their starters. I'd served one of them, so I knew. I looked and saw that their second dish had yet to come. I went to the kitchen and asked for it. And it was sitting there innocently, it's just that no one had served it yet.
I peacefully went back to my former spot.
Second time, I saw that they have finished eating their starters... so I went back into the kitchen to ask about their main.
I served one of the two dishes for their main, not counting the bowl of rice they'd ordered.
I went back to my old spot, saw that they had no rice, walked back into the kitchen, then asked, "Has the rice on 17 gone yet!?"
My uncle/Boss no. 2 that was cooking, "Kitchen Hand no. 1-kun, did you take that rice for table 17 yet!?"
Kitchen Hand no. 1-kun: "No, not yet!"
So then I got the rice and headed to table 17...
I expressed my emotions out loud. "Who!? Who dared served the rice to table 17 before me!?" And I feel like killing you, Kitchen Hand no. 1-kun!! I then put the rice back into the kitchen and returned to my former spot when B-chan/Ruu-chan asked me,
"What was that, Mage-chan?"
Me, "I asked 'who'd served the rice on table 17'."
I didn't hear her answer, but it wasn't time to be talking so I abandoned the conversation.

Second, "We're Being Ripped Off".
I had a discussion today with one of my co-workers while we were taking the tables back into the interior of the restaurant.
The conversation started with Co-worker/J-shi asking, "Does your mom get paid?"
I almost dropped the (heavy) table in my hand. "Yes, of course!" Then I added, "...but she doesn't get as much as us... she get paid "per day" not "per hour" like us, so she gets the same amount everyday whether she worked for 3 hours or 6 hours... I don't know how much she gets paid though."
Okay... three's more to this conversation, it's just that I can't be bothered writing about it any longer.
J-shi was definitely shocked when I told her that E-chan gets $10 per hour and that B-chan gets $8 per hour, though... I can't blame her, of course...

Anyways, I'm going to finish off this blog and start on the one about today's! Preview: the appearance of our friendly neighbour creature; the cockroach! ;)

8D

Another Thing to Add to My List of Things I Regret Saying

Okay, let's see... First, I must explain to you the background information.
You see, me, and my two friends and one of the two friends sisters went to Sydney together to watch the K-Pop Music Fest. 2011. Confused?
Let's call...
Me: Mage-chan
Friend No. 1: A-chan
Friend No. 2: B-chan
Friend No. 1's big sister: A-nee

And so, us four underage adolescents went to Sydney, alone, with no adults (that wasn't a problem for any of us... except for B-chan). A-nee was the one who did all the arranging with her dad. The price ended up being $703 AUSD per person.

Everyone has paid to A-nee and A-chan's dad their own share, except for B-chan.
A-nee and A-chan were going on a holiday, and so they wanted B-chan to pay before they go away. And so I (well, it was my mum), offered to pay for B-chan first, then B-chan can pay me/my mum back later.
Since B-chan now works at the same place as me, thanks to me (so she has some sort of income).

So, B-chan owns me/my mum $703.
(And she has to pay it herself cause her mum won't. :p)

Okay, now, the actual story.

One day at work...
My Boss/Auntie: blah blah blah something something, I'll also ask B-chan to come work during the hols...
Me: Yeah, that's right. Cause she owns me $703. And you're the one who's preventing her from paying me. *jokingly*
Boss: !? $703!?
Me: Oh crap... This is going to become big now...
Boss: *to other coworker* *points to me* She lent her friend $700!!
Me: Like I said, oh crap.
Coworker (let's name her... C-san): What? $700? That's a lot.
Me: ...
Boss: Yeah, that's a lot.
And then they went on lecturing me about how I should not lent so much money to people.
C-san: You shouldn't let other people borrow so much money. What if they don't return it to you, and stuff?
Boss: It could also ruin your friendship you know, it's happen to me before.
Me: ...
C-san: And at your age, too. Australians are different from us Asians... their parents will probably make them pay themselves, and so you might never get it back.
Me: ...
Boss: Yeah, 1. You lose money, 2. You lose your friendship. You shouldn't do something like that.
Me: Hey, if I tell them that I don't actually mind if she never return it, would I get in trouble? ... Yep, I'll get in trouble.
Boss: Like, what, was she going to pay you after she gets paid from work?
Me: Yeah, like, she won't get any money. It'll all come to me.
Boss: But it's not right. Like, at your/that age, $700 is too much...
And then she repeats what she said earlier, except with a little bit of wording difference.
Me: Would it help if I say that she's one year older than me? ...Nope, it wouldn't help.
Boss: And she's not like, good at working, so it won't be certain that she can give you money back
Me: Wait, didn't you say that she was okay at working a couple of weeks ago?
Boss: Like, thing about it. $700... It's around 20 000 baht in Thai money.
Me: Crap, that's a lot...

I ended up getting a lecture, dammit.
Anyways, I think I missed some parts out since it was quite a repetitive and long conversation, and I was doing something else at the same time...

Maybe I'll add to this later. ^^

From,
Mage-chan~