I hate them.
Maybe it's because I feel them in every minute that I am awake. Maybe that's why I hate life, too.
I can't let go of the feeling that there's "always something to do - there's never nothing to do" which is true... which makes me envy (and want to whack) those people who keeps complaining of boredom. And my guess is that those certain people probably envy (and want to whack) people who keeps complaining of busyness as well... not that people who are truly busy actually have time to complain about anything.
I also feel a time restriction in every minute that I am awake, too.
I dislike it a little more than usual when I'm on holiday, mainly because it's holiday. Why do I have to always be so conscious of the time when I'm on holiday? But to no avail, I'm afraid - I have to always be conscious of the time...
I should just set my phone to ring an alarm every 30 minutes. That might be useful... but that still doesn't stop me from being so conscious about the time!!
I wish I could just spend a whole day without worrying about anything at all for once - but that is ultimately impossible!! I either have work or school - one of them, to think about!!! This year, I've had a full day-off from both school and work a few times... countable on one hand! I'm sort of happy but not happy about at it at the same time!
I also want to comment on how I am living in Australia - Australia has so many laws and regulations that I fear just about everything I do, even though maybe not so much, depending on the situations. I fear of this when I cross the road. I fear of this when I write my name down on anything. I fear of this when I go to any public place. I fear of this when I buy anything. I fear of this when I say anything.
Because "I never knew that it was illegal!" isn't an excuse one can use against the court when they've been arrested or fined for some sort of crime!!! And I certainly don't know all of the laws and regulations of Australia! If possible, I sort of want a book on this, read it, and memorise everything, so that I won't ever accidentally get into trouble...(and without even knowing it, no less!)
In Thailand I can fear the law a little less, because... at least I have my dad to protect me!! XD (who is a policeman~!)
Restrictions is also something that support my wish to be forever single very well. Apart from the fact that I am a scaredy-cat; my thoughts are not so different to those of Belle's in one of her posts < that's for my friends in real life.
...hah. Sometimes I wish I'm a carefree person...
Living is so tiring...
Maybe it's because I feel them in every minute that I am awake. Maybe that's why I hate life, too.
I can't let go of the feeling that there's "always something to do - there's never nothing to do" which is true... which makes me envy (and want to whack) those people who keeps complaining of boredom. And my guess is that those certain people probably envy (and want to whack) people who keeps complaining of busyness as well... not that people who are truly busy actually have time to complain about anything.
I also feel a time restriction in every minute that I am awake, too.
I dislike it a little more than usual when I'm on holiday, mainly because it's holiday. Why do I have to always be so conscious of the time when I'm on holiday? But to no avail, I'm afraid - I have to always be conscious of the time...
I should just set my phone to ring an alarm every 30 minutes. That might be useful... but that still doesn't stop me from being so conscious about the time!!
I wish I could just spend a whole day without worrying about anything at all for once - but that is ultimately impossible!! I either have work or school - one of them, to think about!!! This year, I've had a full day-off from both school and work a few times... countable on one hand! I'm sort of happy but not happy about at it at the same time!
I also want to comment on how I am living in Australia - Australia has so many laws and regulations that I fear just about everything I do, even though maybe not so much, depending on the situations. I fear of this when I cross the road. I fear of this when I write my name down on anything. I fear of this when I go to any public place. I fear of this when I buy anything. I fear of this when I say anything.
Because "I never knew that it was illegal!" isn't an excuse one can use against the court when they've been arrested or fined for some sort of crime!!! And I certainly don't know all of the laws and regulations of Australia! If possible, I sort of want a book on this, read it, and memorise everything, so that I won't ever accidentally get into trouble...(and without even knowing it, no less!)
In Thailand I can fear the law a little less, because... at least I have my dad to protect me!! XD (who is a policeman~!)
Restrictions is also something that support my wish to be forever single very well. Apart from the fact that I am a scaredy-cat; my thoughts are not so different to those of Belle's in one of her posts < that's for my friends in real life.
...hah. Sometimes I wish I'm a carefree person...
Living is so tiring...
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