If Only I Was Index*

*Index is an anime character from To Aru Majutsu no Index who has a photographic memory.

This is impossible.

I feel the need to scream, to throw a tantrum, to kill, to stab, to bang, to slam.

What's impossible? Mastering the て Form is.

Now, I am not that retarded or extremely slow, stupid or anything of that kind that makes me impossible to learn anything.
Mastering the て Form is possible - very possible. But mastering the て Form in two days when you exclude school, sleep, and 3 hours of part-time is freakin' impossible.
For me, anyway. :/

~

Also, I have an update to add to my Exams.

Three more exams have popped up this past week.

The first two - I have landed myself two more Japanese exams; a Speaking Exam and a Reading Exam. I talked to my new teacher of my new Year 10 Japanese class, and she wants me to do the Year 10 exams so that she can write my report card... At first she wanted me to do also do the Listening and Writing Exams.
First let me explain that the Speaking and Reading Exams is supposed to be done in Term 1, while the Listening and Writing Exams is in Term 2. And technically speaking, if I want to pass the Listening and Writing Exams, that means I have to learn everything in Term 1 and 2... in under a week!!! So I told her that it was just impossible. So then we decided to just do the Term 1 exams - the Speaking and the Reading. ...but learning everything in Term 1 in under a week is still not that easy. :/

And the other one - a Mathematics Exam... which I don't have that much against, but I still... for some reason, I am unreasonably worried about failing it. Oh, for god's sake! I have never gotten anywhere near a fail mark in Maths before, so for what reason am I so worried about failing? (By the way, to me, usually, C = Fail. B = Not that great, but acceptable. A = ...yeah. 'S good, I guess.)

Hahh...

The other day, I was going through some of my Japanese homework which I was "catching up" on.
My friend who was doing Year 10 Japanese was also sitting there.
I did one of the activities then asked her, "Hey, is this right?"
She took a look at it and then said, a little airily, "I don't know... We didn't look at it much."
...which pissed me off considerately. I would have bashed my head against my books if I'd actually been intelligent enough to come up with the idea then. Instead I'd stomped the ground, slapped my knees with the books in my hands, and took deep breaths... it was another unreasonable irritation, after all.
...Seriously, I'm so unreasonable I can't believe someone can be so unreasonable! I'm the most unreasonable person I've ever known [in real life]!
Then I did something I ultimately regret. Despite the fact that my friend didn't look like me jumping around and abusing myself with books in frustration bothered her at all, I explained why I was annoyed. ...I really should have just remained silent. 
Even my explanation in itself was a total failure.
I was annoyed because that was my first time seeing it. I haven't even read the textbook on it yet! (mine's still shipping). And here she says "we didn't look at it much". Now, compare "this is my first time ever seeing  this sentence structure" and "we didn't look at it much"...
:D

Yes, that is all.

...I really should just continue remaining silent! I've been talking way too much lately. I should try to limit my speaking to... what, hmm, maybe 20 sentences per day? :D

I should record everything I say for referencing for improvement. :)

Rushin' Around - Japanese Exams~

Today was a pretty busy day for me! And I was also annoyed because everything just had to land on almost the same time!

Today, my violin lesson time and the time I'd scheduled my Japanese Speaking Exam collided! (I'm doing Japanese through Distance Education, for those who doesn't know.)
And because I didn't have a Year 9 Japanese lesson... wait, this is a bit complicated.

Let me start from the start.

Year 8 Japanese is the very beginner Japanese. I was put into this class at the start of this year since I've never done any official Japanese with a proper teacher before.
But I was too good, so they moved me up to Year 9 Japanese. :P
But then I was too good again! ...okay, they wanted to move me up so that I can do Year 11 Japanese when I'm in Year 11 - this way I can get the extra points when I graduate. At least that's what I think. So one day I received an email from my Year 9 Japanese teacher saying that my work has been very good, and that I can move up to Year 10 Japanese if I wanted to.
I took the opportunity. And so, this week is exam week, and I have to do the End-of-year Year 9 tests.

I don't have a Year 9 lesson today because of NAPLAN (those of you who ain't Australian - NAPLAN is practically a compulsory nationwide numeracy and literacy exam for Year 3,5,7,9 students [National Assessment Program - Literacy and Numeracy, I think, from the top of my head])
So I am free to choose whether I want to use that as a spare lesson or to go to my normal class, which is Science.

Our school's schedule goes like this: Period 1, Morning Tea/Recess, Period 2, Period 3, Lunch Break, Period 4.
I usually have my Year 9 Japanese lesson in period 2, where my normal class is Science, which means I miss Science once every week. Period 3 I usually have a Work Education class, but this week my violin lesson landed on this spot - as did my Speaking Exam. The "make-up" time slot for violin lessons is in period 2, and it's split into the first half and the second half - my teacher told me to go to the second half.
So I decided to go to my Science class, then to the make-up lesson, because the Science exam is also looming near.

In the end, I ended up doing this:
Science for 20 minutes, then rushed to a make-up violin lesson that went for 20 minutes.
Then I went to my Speaking Exam that went for around 23 minutes.
I dashed back to the music block to continue my violin lesson - which was supposed to be at this time, anyway, which went for approx. 30 minutes (- usually the lessons takes around 50 minutes).
Then I went to my normal class at that time to catch up - in 20 minutes, before that period ended!
And while I was relaxing since it was lunch time, I remembered that I'd intended to do the last of my Japanese exams, the Writing Exam, at that time!
So then I rushed to the "International Education and Languages Department" to grab my exam, which I rushed in doing... a little. I finished the exam which was meant to go for 40 minutes in 25 minutes just in time for last period. As the bell signalling students to head for their period 4 class rang, I threw my pencil down, rushed out of the library (in which I was doing the exam at), and dashed back to the "International Education and Languages Department", put my finished exam in the right folder then hurried to my period 4 class, trying to not be late.

All in all, it was a very successful day! :D

...So, talking about exams. The Japanese exams were ridiculously easy!! Way too easy!
I easily did them, and definitely passed them, without even studying! No, really. I didn't study. Not really, anyway.
Because I didn't feel the need to - I remembered what I'd learnt when I'd studied them, and so looking at everything that we've already learnt just makes me feel like I'm wasting my time, since I already knew everything! I just flipped through the textbook and revision sheets to make sure that I haven't missed out anything, but that's all.

The Listening Exam freaked me out, but not because I thought I would fail - seriously, who made those recordings!? It was so weird, and they were talking unnaturally slow...
The Reading Exam was also insanely, ridiculously easy...
Truth be told, I guess the only ones I'm really worried about are the Writing and Speaking Exams (if this is the Japanese ones we're talking about, that is)... the hard ones. ><
About the writing... well, I'm never sure of myself anyway! Even if I couldn't have made it any better, didn't rush, studied all day and all night, I'd still be worried over it! It's in my nature!
After I'd finished the Speaking Exam, my illogical mind was telling me that I must've failed. But at the same time my logical mind told me that I would've at least gotten a pass. Even if sensei had said those words to me after the exam, "Your pronunciation is outstanding! Your ability to change verb forms on the spot is amazing!" ...and other such praises. But even with that I cannot hold on to the certainty that I will retain an A! Because even with those words, I could still get a B, even a C! Oh, the devastation! ><

I want an A, no, I want all As on my Japanese exams! Because I've always been adept at learning the language, but I've never been officially assessed before, and these were my first Japanese exams in my entire life!
I feel a strange sense of dread, accomplishment, development and progress!

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
I'm going to die! I'm going to die from information overload!! I'm going to die from excitement!

Gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!

Ahem. Sorry. This is what happens when I get over-excited. I become extremely hyper. ==

So what is the reason for me being over-excited?
JAPANESE, is what is making me over-excited. >.> I got a bunch of emails from my new (first time for me, too. It doesn't help.) teacher...
It's Distance Education, so things work a little differently...

But...
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!

I forgot to tell you. I don't become like this just because I'm over-excited. I become like this when I'm over-excited and extremely nervous.
=*=...It's more because of the nervousness, actually. I just didn't use the right word earlier. Yeah, the nervousness is more like it. Not the over-excitement, but the extreme nervousness...

*siighhh*

Then I become extremely drained afterwards, after going hyper...

Oh, but I must not forget that I have a violin lesson tomorrow, as well as my (first ever) Japanese lesson... okay... calm... down... fe9qy[t b5NG-9C02-vrn ]g93-\ 6=N4MT2]Y%^&*()D(&GHIOF j ir=qpie-uy!!!!>!#(#*

Nope, I didn't calm down...

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

I'm not making ANY SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Extreme nervousness, I say. ==