Sydney: Shopping is Despisable to The Point of Wishing For the End of the World

Goodness, that was so much pain.

I felt like crying, which is just... funny. To cry, from simply being forced to go shopping for clothes? Da hell?
Anyway, it was painful.
It was a waste of time; I had no intentions of buying those stuff that are ridiculously priced, mostly over $50 pieces of clothing anyway. ==

After being made to wear a few different outfits, and I refused them all using the "they're way too expensive" excuse. And so we continued on, and from then, I silently refused to enter a store with them and instead would stand waiting outside.
Ahhh~ I reflected upon myself during the waiting time, and I've realised how... I don't know, mental, I am. I felt so much of a negative emotion from just going clothes shopping; I wished to have never been born so that I would never have to experience something like changing clothes in a changing room and looking through random article of clothing; I wished to just disappear right then and there; I wished the whole place would just blow up... Goodness. O.o
Let me tell you that it wasn't bad, in a general view. I just silently walked after them, went on my own once or twice, then they'd just pick out clothes that might look good on me. I would usually stare at them for a few seconds before they would just urge me to go try it on already. I would then silently follow their commands, but  it was just a waste of time, like I said.
I'm sure they thought the same too, since they didn't really bother me after the first few stores... :P
See? Doesn't sound bad at all, does it? Na, because it's just me. Yes, everything is just me. After all, only I can make myself feel things. Only I can get annoyed simply because I am annoyed at something.

Haaah... so unreasonable of me, wishing for the whole place to be blown up; I'd be hurting innocent lives if the wish had came true... but now I've begun to despise clothing shops. Actually, I think I already hate them quite the amount.
And now I think I'm starting to have something against buying things; I used to love buying books and stationary, but now... I have no wish to do anything; I should just work and study, after all.
Yes, the two things I have to focus on. After all they're the present.... that is for the best of the future.