I find myself almost always wishing to die, to just mysteriously drop dead or just... disappear off the face of the earth, or any other world or afterlife that may exist.
That's a bit of a problem, since just wishing it most probably won't make it happen.
But apparently my friend thinks it will. However I'd said that she was wrong that she said that if you think about something hard enough, it will come true one day.
If that really was true, I'd be really glad. I'll wish to be shot quickly, painlessly and neatly in the head. Or for myself to have enough courage to commit suicide. :3
I'm wasting my time thinking about it. It'd be better if I'd acted for it. After all, if you want something, you'd have to give away something in return, right? You'd need to act for what you wished, right?
I shouldn't really just sit here wasting my time, just silently thinking about how much I want to die.
I'd better think about something else or just do it already.
I'd prefer the latter, but that's a bit too hard to do...
I stop myself procrasitinating by picking up my japanese workbook! :3 that way I take my mind of being depressed and doing something useful and beneficial.
ReplyDeletep.s. please don't die
But wouldn't you still be procrastinating whatever you're supposed to be doing? O.o
Delete(and what a coincidence; I'm doing my Japanese homework at the moment... :3)
P.S. I'll think about it.
We'll all die one day anyway, it's just that I'll die... earlier than others; if my wish comes true... and even if you're older than me, you shadn't die before me either, Deevi. :3
I have almost died on more than one occasion. But I guess that doesn't count because I'm still alive.
DeleteHowever, life and death is not a game. I hope to have many a conversation with you before both our time's is up.
nihongo shukudai desu ne, gambatteyo! XD
Yes, I, too, wish to have many a conversation with thee. :3
DeleteMaybe I'll go to London one day (IN SUMMER!!!)... :P
Soudesu. Dekimashta. :) nihongo no shukudai ha kaiten/yasashii desu. :D
London is FAR for you and Australia is FAR for me! but who knows, we could always start with a telephone call... one day.
Deletehaaai, yokudekimashita (well done)! Aa! yasashikatta desu ka? (it was easy?) yokatta da yo (That's good!), omedetou gozaimasu! :)
Yes, one day. Skype or MSN might be better as a start though.
DeletePlus, phone calls can become extremely awkward (not to mention expensive, LOL) when you've ran out of things to say or just simply don't know what to say - I'll be tempted to hang up on you. :P
Soudesu! Yasashiikattadesu. This one, anyway. :3
...I have the exams in two weeks though. Hmp! Revision! Study!
One step at a time. Making friends on the internet is a scary thing to do. People aren't always who they seem to be (I'm been bitten in the past). But I have a better more genuine feeling about you.
Deletetesuto wa gambarimasu! don't put any pressure or expectations on yourself, just do your best (which does involve working hard!)
Yes. :) That's why MSN or Skype would be better than phone calls.
DeleteIndeed, making friends on the internet is scary. I've wanted to like, swap emails or something with you for a while now, but.... in the internet.
...Now, are you sure you can trust that feeling? (Nooo, I'm not trying to push you away. I just... can't stop myself from pointing that out....)
Then again, I guess I can't always pretend to be someone else everyday, blogging about made-up stuff, now... lying would be more tiring than telling the truth, wouldn't it? O.o
Cautious is good. I've been bitten once before, you can find out more by reading my latest post :)
DeleteWell if you imagine it this way. What if one day we did meet? There should be no worries or regrets about what we've shared up until then. Right? :)
But I don't want to expect anything like that now. It's early days yet.
I agree with you at the selfish part. :3
ReplyDelete(Well, I don't want a life...) Also, I'm not suicidal. Definitely not. I just want to die; doesn't mean I'm suicidal. :)
Sorry, I probably do sound annoying in my self-introduction. I need to change that. =="
Hmm, I'm not really excited about life, though...