The World is Practically Screaming at Me to Commit Suicide Already

First, I lost my USB.

Now one of my favourite series that I have following for quite a long time just ended. And it ended on something that seemed to be a "forced" and "rushed" ending. There were still so many things that Akamatsu-sama could've explored. And so I say goodbye to you, Mahou Sensei Negima!.
Aah... tears are coming out of my eyes. I should make a stand-alone post to commemorate this happening, and not in such a negative light as this post, but... :/
Mahou Sensei Negima!, serialised for 9 years, 38 Volumes, 355 chapters...
So then, all of us Negima! fans will never forget such a unique, badass, and awesome manga that you are.
I'm sure that the very warm and friendly Negima! forums at MangaFox will continue to be active even when the series has ended. It has already been a tradition to hold a Character Popularity Contest every year, and the Stumppers' Game can still continued on. And the Theories threads will continue to be chock-full of possibilities, especially so when it was an open-end.
Aah... the days that I've followed the weekly serialisation full of "breaks" of Akamatsu-sensei...
Once again, I bid you farewell, Mahou Sensei Negima!.

Now, my commemoration done and over with, although I'm still in a sad mood... T^T
It really was a good series, that Mahou Sensei Negima!. Although I am not a fan of yuri and ecchi, I ignored/endured/meh it and just continued reading, because the plot and characters were so damn interesting. The action was great too, and that's something coming from someone who does not like to read action. (I only like watching action. Because reading action is... too hard to follow. :P)
All that character development, and plot development, backstories... aah... T^T Crying all over again. I'll just say that there wasn't actually a character in this series that I truly dislike. There are characters that I am annoyed over, but that's because of the role they need to play. (although most of them are crazy-as...)
I also like how Mahou Sensei Negima! has almost everything. Mages, werewolves, psychopaths, demons, flying palaces, robots, genius inventors, hikkikomoris, net idols, swordswomen, talking perverted ermine, half-dog boy, etc..... The list goes on.
Although many think that the ending was a disappointment, everyone must agrees that the series as a whole is as good as they come.
So those who haven't tried it yet, do so.

Okaayyyy. Let's get on to what I mean by this post's title.
Firstly, my visa is coming to an end soon. Secondly, my USB gets lost. Thirdly, one of my favourite mangas ends.
The World is Practically Screaming at Me to Commit Suicide Already.

Relate back to this post of mine.

Heh. I wish I could just die without killing myself, just like that.
Except that it would be bad if someone that doesn't want to die get caught up in my wanting-die pleas, so I won't ask for the Mafia or the Yakuza... or for the world to be destroyed.

And so I'm left with only committing suicide. :/

Except that I don't really want to kill myself. Such a sin and how scary it would be. I just don't have the courage to step over the ledge, pull the trigger, jump onto the road, slam the pills down my throat, or push the knife inwards.

Aaah... what a shame.
And while someone like me who wants to die won't die, there are other people out there who are trying their best to keep alive yet it is not possible.

The world works like this.