The Urge to Kill Then Commit Suicide Afterwards :P

I'm currently in my daily/weekly State of Depression at the moment, and I feel the need to yell/scream/shout/thrash, etc. xD

Because my head feels friggin' messed up, and I feel the need to clear it up by screaming. x) Ahahaha, it makes so much sense. (although I'd like to warn you that I may not make that much sense in this post. 'Cause, like I said, my mind is messed up...) :3
(And don't tell me to stop putting those contradicting-seeming emoticons up.....)

It's a little strange. I haven't been "deep" in my State of Depression for the longest period of time yet since I've acquired Depression, and that's approx. 4 days. (I've been in and out of short ones in between, but I haven't been in "deep" ones for a while now...)
But it's impossible for me to stay carefree forever, so it came back. :3

And I feel really tired at the moment, no surprise. Because I haven't been in a "State of Depression", I've been spending my days totally carelessly (which actually resulted in my homework being forgotten and more manga read, mind you). And spending my day carelessly meant no depression-filled thoughts, meaning I smile and go high/crazy/talk a lot more than when I'm in a State of Depression (which can be easily mistaken with a State of Sleepiness and Tiredness). So I use up a lot more energy.
So now that I've come out of my thoughtless-happy-happy phrase, I'm friggin' tired.

One of the symptoms of Depression is that you're "so tired that you can't do anything" after all. ^^

But I'm back into normal mood now that I just indulged in some nice, enjoyable, good manga.
(Namely Zettai Karen Children. It's really good during the 100+ chapters...)