I'm Just Pointlessly Ranting On...

I reaaaally hate how I cry so easily... usually.

...but I never cry when I'm angry. Because when I'm angry I feel more like killing someone, not crying. x)
Mostly I cry from reading a sad manga scene or watching a sad anime scene/drama... :/

Anyway, the restaurant is closed today so my mum's home. She asks me to search on this "visa" business since my auntie and uncle are just like "meh" on the matter. ++ Dude... really now...

I discovered something. Specifically, something good. :)

Sort of.

Because going back to Thailand would've been good as well... :/ I don't really want to, but it'd be good, in many different ways.

So it's impossible for my mum to get a PR because of her age, but she can get another temporary "Employer Sponsor" visa because it has no age limit. But it will be a bit more complicated to file than the PR one which was the "RSMS", apparently - you don't need to know what that is. I just feel the need to use the actual word (technically it's an abbreviation, but...). ==
Anyway, the temporary one (specifically Subclass 457) will give my mum plus me another 4 years in this country if it passes. If it doesn't - all hope is lost and let's just get ready to return to my home country. :3

Me and my mum has already decided to start to clear stuff right away if we don't get the visa - it's gonna take a while... >":3 I have a lot of stuff. I was thinking of donating my English manga books to my various friends around here... (Vampire Knight, School Rumble, Shugo Chara!, Alice in the Country of Hearts...)
Although there will be some that I'll take back with me, mostly the English novels since I obviously can't get them in Thailand... and I'll probably give my Thai friends here the Thai manga (or send them that if that's more convenient) since I can just read them online or buy new ones over there, although that would be a waste. Then again, I shouldn't have any guilt about reading them online since I've already bought the books, right??? X)
[I actually have two copies of one of the Vampire Knight books - it was an accident, but now I have an English copy and a Thai copy... but the Thai copy's in Thailand though. ><)

During that search, my eyes watered. >< Oh, but I DID NOT cry. xD
Ohh, but it certainly made me feel like dying. ^^ Oh wait. It's more rare that I don't feel like dying nowadays. xP Ahahaha.

After starting school, I think this is the time when I feel that my future is in real peril.
And how much of a failure I am. :/