I Feel Like the World Has Just Ended

...But I will still say this:

STOP SOPA!!!! (oh, and PIPA too) Seriously, I'm sure no fanfiction readers and manga fans, plus DeviantArt users would want it to happen. Badly.


Current mood: Like committing suicide

A couple of minutes ago I was still on high and serious, about to write a whole blog post essay-style on this SOPA and PIPA topic. But after finding out a certain piece of information, I have no more motivation to do that any longer. ==

What I feel like doing now?

Studying.
And HARD.
(+ committing suicide, but I'm not going to do that.)

I don't even want to read manga; and that's extremely SHOCKING.

Why?
:/
It's now almost certain that I'll have to return to Thailand by the end of the year. It's not funny. And I'm not happy.
Even though it was already certain before, now it's even more certain.
Before: 75% certain
Now: 92% certain

It doesn't just suck. It's suicide-inducing terrible.
I'm not saying I'm going to commit suicide. But I don't guarantee anything. :3
(And I can still joke. That's a good sign...)

And the person who made this possible... the person who allowed the 75% to move up to 92% just happened to be my auntie. Or uncle. It's one of them.

I'm not going to say much, but the information was given to them in SEPTEMBER 2011. (My auntie and uncle took care of the visa applying stuff)

And it is now JANUARY 2012.

In the information it says for my mum to apply for blah blah blah visa before her next birthday, which was on JANUARY... the 10th.

Too late for that now.

Cause if she doesn't, applying for a visa would now be EXTREMELY DIFFICULT and HIGHLY UNLIKELY for it to happen.

But still, too late now.

But now I'm quite glad. My mood right now might allow me to fail my grades; so then everything might be okay if I move back to Thailand after all... I feel like there's no longer anything in the world for me to look forward to, in other words, like committing suicide. :)

I'll just let myself fail and live like a useless fool with no future...

:P

Meh.

I have no hopes and dreams, after all.
(That's a Yumekui Merry reference, BTW)

And dude, don't try to cheer me up. I DO NOT want to be cheered up. There's no reason to. :/

Don't even mention it. It'll just annoy me. :/