Objection, Rejection.

I wrote this a few weeks ago, just didn't get to publish it. But the thought of this post was pissing me off because of a certain event that happened in real life...
So, someone complimented me.
I responded uncertainly, "okay..."
And the person said, "Say thank you! blah blah blah,"
"Huh?" I actually didn't even register that it was a compliment then! I mean, I knew what he/she said... I just somehow didn't manage to make the connection that "what he/she said" = compliment. I deduced that it must've been because my brain hates compliments so much that it subconsciously rejected it, so my mind didn't register it being a compliment!! XD

Now, onto that actual post I wrote a few weeks ago. I don't want to delete it, so I'm going to "get rid" of it by publishing it. :D

Every time I hear a praise or compliment (someone saying something praising towards me), I go nuts.
Someone says I'm smart?
Objection. (Has happened before)
Someone says I'm pretty?
Objection. (Has happened before)
Someone says I'm good at writing?
Objection. (Has happened before)

My brain would immediately and on automatic start finding evidence to deny the [not true] statement.

You know, when I get complimented, it would be best to just say "thank you" despite not feeling thankful at all rather than denying it, right? Or not?
I should just totally lie right? I should just pretend to be happy right? I should just pretend to be glad right?

I hate this sort of contradiction. ...I hate all sorts of contradiction.
Yet it's prettyyy common in my daily life. [As Earl Lloyd once (or was it twice?) said to Kururugi Suzaku; "This contradiction will kill you one day". Anyone who don't know what I'm talking about must go watch Code Geass. And now.]
Lying is best...
But I dislike lying...
Oh. I just realised. I should do what is best and ignore my own emotions. -__- How could I forget that.

So let's just go and say "thank you".

Well that was easy.